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Thought One. Love:
So GOP Senator Rob Portman has come out in favour of marriage equality because his son is gay. This is wonderful. Sure, it took him two years post his son bravely coming out to his vocally homophobic parents but now he says that "knowing that my son is gay allowed me to think about this issue from a new perspective and that's as a dad who loves his son a lot and wants him to have the same opportunities as his brother and sister have." It is mind-blowing that Rob Portman was unable or unwilling prior to this to imagine that other parents might also want equality for their gay children. That other sons and daughters deserved the same opportunities as their siblings. I am delighted that such a renowned homophobe has managed to overcome his bigotry for the love of his son but let's not applaud too loudly. Let's keep pointing out the obvious: equality is not just something that you should feel obliged to fight for when it is your own child being discriminated against but should be a basic human right and one to which we say unanimously 'but of course'. But of course.
Thought Two. Cruelty:
Every act of cruelty I have ever committed has been enacted with a complete lack of malice, forethought or awareness of the misery I was inflicting on others. Does this make it better? I think not. Does it elevate me above the children who practiced cruelty with precision and intended hurt? Perhaps at the time it did, as their acts were as regular as clock-work, as common as the lunch bell or the teacher's turned back. My acts were separated by years but - and here is the part that terrifies me - the 'cruel' children studied their handy work. They noted its affects on others and, in time, most probably stopped. That adult sensibility kicked in. You know - the one that says X + Y = pain for X and guilt for Y. Or, simpler yet, a voice pipped up inside their child-heads and said 'don't' then 'why not stop?' then perhaps 'this isn't fun any more'.
My acts were not studied. So completely unaware was I that I have probably continued through life, causing others pain in a state of total oblivion. This thought actually grabs at my lungs and stabs at my stomach. So does the thought of Little Amy bringing home the party invitation.
It was a pool party scene. One of six I had given out in readiness for my eighth birthday. On impulse, I had taken a pen and, on each of the six invitations, had written in tiny letters 'you' with an arrow pointing to an obese woman in green bathers and had thought no more of it. Amy had been friendless for much of the year but was adopted by my best friend and I in the last term as we were Compassionate Little Girls and believed it was our duty. But I was barely put out when she announced the next day that she couldn't come to my party because her mother had read what I had written. Honestly, I brushed it off. Thought her overly sensitive. Wasn't my explanation - that I had done the same to everyone - enough? I moved on.
And on.
And on.
Two weeks ago, in the grips of heat-induced insomnia, I suddenly remembered this incident and saw the eight year old Amy, ecstatic at finally having been invited to a party, carrying the prized paper home to her mother. The mother reads it, spots those three horrible letters and their accompanying arrow.
'You are not their friend, Amy. You are their joke.'
The heartbreak must have been...
I have not enough words to express my remorse.
I try to be good. I try to be kind. I try to tread gently and look with love and kindness on those around me but sometimes I wonder if I should just skip to the chase and tattoo 'sorry' to the back of my oblivious head so that, as it wanders away, you will at least know that I am trying really hard.
Thought Three. Music:
Not really a thought but for anyone who enjoyed our last youtube video of my friends and I singing drunk and spontaneous, you might also enjoy this.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdSh6-…
This one is just ridiculous. A friend of ours walking by (correctly) guesses that he probably knows these weirdos and comes and joins us. Very lovely surprise.
Hopefully a couple of you will be entertained.
My life really is a lot of fun.
So GOP Senator Rob Portman has come out in favour of marriage equality because his son is gay. This is wonderful. Sure, it took him two years post his son bravely coming out to his vocally homophobic parents but now he says that "knowing that my son is gay allowed me to think about this issue from a new perspective and that's as a dad who loves his son a lot and wants him to have the same opportunities as his brother and sister have." It is mind-blowing that Rob Portman was unable or unwilling prior to this to imagine that other parents might also want equality for their gay children. That other sons and daughters deserved the same opportunities as their siblings. I am delighted that such a renowned homophobe has managed to overcome his bigotry for the love of his son but let's not applaud too loudly. Let's keep pointing out the obvious: equality is not just something that you should feel obliged to fight for when it is your own child being discriminated against but should be a basic human right and one to which we say unanimously 'but of course'. But of course.
Thought Two. Cruelty:
Every act of cruelty I have ever committed has been enacted with a complete lack of malice, forethought or awareness of the misery I was inflicting on others. Does this make it better? I think not. Does it elevate me above the children who practiced cruelty with precision and intended hurt? Perhaps at the time it did, as their acts were as regular as clock-work, as common as the lunch bell or the teacher's turned back. My acts were separated by years but - and here is the part that terrifies me - the 'cruel' children studied their handy work. They noted its affects on others and, in time, most probably stopped. That adult sensibility kicked in. You know - the one that says X + Y = pain for X and guilt for Y. Or, simpler yet, a voice pipped up inside their child-heads and said 'don't' then 'why not stop?' then perhaps 'this isn't fun any more'.
My acts were not studied. So completely unaware was I that I have probably continued through life, causing others pain in a state of total oblivion. This thought actually grabs at my lungs and stabs at my stomach. So does the thought of Little Amy bringing home the party invitation.
It was a pool party scene. One of six I had given out in readiness for my eighth birthday. On impulse, I had taken a pen and, on each of the six invitations, had written in tiny letters 'you' with an arrow pointing to an obese woman in green bathers and had thought no more of it. Amy had been friendless for much of the year but was adopted by my best friend and I in the last term as we were Compassionate Little Girls and believed it was our duty. But I was barely put out when she announced the next day that she couldn't come to my party because her mother had read what I had written. Honestly, I brushed it off. Thought her overly sensitive. Wasn't my explanation - that I had done the same to everyone - enough? I moved on.
And on.
And on.
Two weeks ago, in the grips of heat-induced insomnia, I suddenly remembered this incident and saw the eight year old Amy, ecstatic at finally having been invited to a party, carrying the prized paper home to her mother. The mother reads it, spots those three horrible letters and their accompanying arrow.
'You are not their friend, Amy. You are their joke.'
The heartbreak must have been...
I have not enough words to express my remorse.
I try to be good. I try to be kind. I try to tread gently and look with love and kindness on those around me but sometimes I wonder if I should just skip to the chase and tattoo 'sorry' to the back of my oblivious head so that, as it wanders away, you will at least know that I am trying really hard.
Thought Three. Music:
Not really a thought but for anyone who enjoyed our last youtube video of my friends and I singing drunk and spontaneous, you might also enjoy this.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=gdSh6-…
This one is just ridiculous. A friend of ours walking by (correctly) guesses that he probably knows these weirdos and comes and joins us. Very lovely surprise.
Hopefully a couple of you will be entertained.
My life really is a lot of fun.
Some things for you
Hello lovely deviants,
I just thought I'd let you know that the podcast I've been working, Audio Stage, on is up and running. It is very much a theatre podcast but the conversation is very engaging and I'd love you to check it out. Our most recent episode with Angela Conquet is my favourite so far and, if you've ever wondered what I sound like, I'm the one that doesn't have a French or Croatian accent and talking about how great wine is at the top of the episode. You can find us on iTunes or at our website.
Now, some writing for you:
One day, when I was fifteen, I attended an event ran by an organisation which provided legal aid to asylum
The future is just a second away
Two thoughts.
Thought #1
One day in the future, not too far away, we will have GPS dots. Buy them in bulk. Put them on anything worth more than a few dollars. Your phone. Your laptop. Your keys. Your dog.
Log in and find out where they are. Locate your missing keys. Follow your laptop through the streets of Melbourne on the back seat of a thief's car. From your work computer, watch your dog, a little blue dot, leap the fence and wander down the street. As you run to your office door, turn back and see the blue dot meet the line that is Punt Road and stop moving.
You drive, fighting back tears and checking your phone but it doesn't move again.
A little interview in the midst of chaos
Hi all,
Just a quick update.
Just thought some of you might be interested in this. It is a rather nice interview I did for aussietheatre. com on being a playwright, taking criticism and how I'm making a habit of writing roles for myself and then hand-balling them on to other actors. http://aussietheatre.com.au/features/on-writing-fleur-kilpatrick?doing_wp_cron=1375062171.1599540710449218750000 It was a really lovely one to do.
Also, if anyone is in Adelaide this week, two of my plays are being read for five.point.one's 'Reading Sessions'. If you google the company, you'll find the information. The plays are called 'Unicorn' and 'The C
On sexual violence, fear and Slaughterhouse Five
Many of you are not Australian so perhaps you are unaware of the murder of Gillian Meagher last year in my home city but if you are Australian or Irish (Jill's country of origin) you will know every detail of the case. Jill Meagher's murder touched my city deeply. She was walking home after a few drinks with workmates in Brunswick. The distance was very small (barely a few hundred meters) but after leaving her friends she was brutally raped and murdered by Adrian Bayley and her body was dumped in a shallow grave. A week after her disappearance 30 000 people walked down the main street in Brunswick in her memory and to speak out against vi
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From my own experience of being a rambunctious and rather irrationally passionate child, I look to the things I did out of malice as not much more than me reacting to a situation. Or things that made sense in my head at the time not much more than ignorance. You weren't making fun of her, you were just saying this is you in a bathing suit (if i understood the story correctly). If you were in contact with her now I'm sure you might apologize and she may just brush it off as you being kids and you didn't know. Should you feel guilty about the repercussions? Well, maybe, but you didn't know at the time and it's in the past now. I like to live by this: Accept the things you can not change, and change the things you can not accept. Can you change the invitation? No. Can you possibly apologize to the person for what you had done in a blissfully ignorant age in your life? Well sure if the opportunity presents itself. You should not dwell on things like that though because it's just not good for you. You've now realized you've done things that were hurtful in an oblivious manner, so now you're trying to be more aware. I don't believe that's anything to be feeling bad over, as long as you're making the effort, and you are always so kind to all of your friends and commenters and people passing over your page here, so it is very apparent that you are a kind individual